As I set on the eve of starting Exodus 90, there are two things going through my mind: Can I really go through with this program, and how am I going to be an anchor for my brother if I am not a well-set anchor myself?
I’m facing a lot of doubt right now. Doubt about whether I’m going to be able to live up to the expectations of the program. Doubt about whether I can really be a good anchor. And doubts about whether there are some things in this program that don’t really matter.
But I have to rely upon the fact that, in an act of wisdom, I made a commitment to do this program. I made a commitment to better myself. I made a commitment to put God first in my life. That is where I must start.
First things first: Is this program perfect? No. But it does require me to make sacrifices of myself for God, for my family, and for others. Those are three things that I need more of in my life.
Next: Can I be a well-set anchor for my brother? The answer is yes. I need to get over my embarrassment of not feeling man enough. I can hold people accountable for their commitments. That is what I do at home and at work. I am not perfect at it, but I know enough to be effective.
Can I live up to the expectations of this program? No, I cannot live up to them perfectly. But if I rely on God’s grace, I can do this well. I can achieve the freedom that I so desire for myself, for my family, and for God.
I cannot do any of this alone. Through the grace of God, I will endure.