Exodus 90 is a spiritual program that offers a way to gain freedom through discipline centered around prayer, asceticism, and fraternity. As someone who was struggling with an obsession with news and politics, I knew I needed to make a change. I was motivated to join the program, but the days leading up to it were filled with trepidation and doubt.
One of my biggest fears was the idea that the other members of the program wouldn’t like me. As an introverted person, making friends doesn’t come easily to me. But I realized that since we were all strangers, we were all in the same boat. I also reminded myself of our shared purpose: to become better men. If we reject someone who is willing to participate, we’re not living up to that purpose. Finally, as someone who manages people for a living, I knew I could work with anyone.
Another fear I had to overcome was the worry that I wasn’t “Catholic enough” since I had only been Catholic for a short time. But I quickly realized that this group of people was intentionally joining a spiritual program because they were highly interested in it. Plus, I may have known more than I thought, having been educated as an adult. I was able to find my niche and share what I knew with others.
The final doubt I had was whether or not I really needed to be in a fraternity. I knew I could establish discipline and hold myself accountable, but I wasn’t sure about the value of the fraternity aspect. However, I soon realized that the challenge and support of a group pushing towards a common goal was invaluable. Watching others grow in their faith and Christ alongside me was an opportunity I couldn’t pass up.
Now, after five weeks in the program, I am extremely grateful for my brothers who have been with me since the beginning. The benefit of being part of a group that supports and challenges each other far outweighs any negative aspects. I am glad that I was able to overcome my fears and participate fully in the program. Going through something with someone else is truly special, and I can’t imagine doing this program alone.